At My Place: Maintaining Personal Dignity

I really don't like to think about what I need to give up as my end of of life "seems" to be creeping up on me. But it gets scary when your younger siblings want to suggest new living arrangements, places, giving up on some normal things in your life.

Have you had this happen? Does your dander go up with an inner alert that your personal dignity is in serious danger. They think you should give up some things. They don't ask; they tell you!

've tried to hold my ground by insisting that I will pray about it and make my moves when the LORD tells me what to do. Somehow they brush that off as a weak answer.

Yet, I've lived most of my adult life - even as soon as I was 12 or 13 - where I have prayed about all my decisions and held off from all sudden moves until I was sure I knew the LORD's will for me in the matter.

Perhaps I sense their pressure more now when I've had back fractures for 3 months, and last week when I was sure the problem was all cleared up I went out to shovel the snow off the garden path so I would be able to get to the car easily on Sunday morning to go to church.

Well, when I came in after that shoveling I realized something had cracked again in my lower back - the pain became worse as the evening progressed and I felt badly I had assured a couple of friends I would be in church on Sunday morning.

Sunday morning I had my confirmation; I could not move without my cane and some grimacing at my pain. So I stayed home again, and prayed until it was time to watch the service online.

The pain still slows me down this morning, but I keep hoping it will clear soon. I assure you, my mind is still sharp and able to think well, yet my physical moves seem pathetic.

So when the siblings call they sure sound as if they have all the answers for me..

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