Content with Living Alone

After two weeks of being busy with company eager to be of great help to me, and making them my priority for those days, I'm almost amazed at how Content with living alone I am.

Decades ago, back in London, Ontario, I recall being so lonely that sometimes my tears fell into my soup. I had really thought I'd be married and have a house full of kids by then. I'd be busy in church on Sunday morning, but when I came home I only recalled that no one had even once touched me.

When I moved back to my parents in 1983 I expected to be even more lonely... yet somehow God gave me contentment and assurance that He was constantly with me. I was soon busy in the local church; as Mom needed more time and attention, I gave up those roles. Yet I had my penpals, my prayer journal, where I had long talks with the LORD.

After Dad died I spent about 4 months cleaning his house, selling it, and deep-cleaning this little house before I was able to settle down - then go to work at Western Tract Mission, like a regular job.

When that was over I stayed home, made my own list of my Big Projects, plus the garden - for my food and pleasure. The other day I realized I have been here for 17 years as of June 1. This is my comfortable nest and I now enjoy living alone. I'm quite content!

So all the talk recently about finding places to enter my name on waiting lists to move into a Seniors' Place, rather discombobulated me. (Dori insisted that most of those places have you waiting 5-6 years for an opening.)

That may be, but I need time to pray about this, commit the matter to the LORD, in such a way that I don't keep snatching it back to worry about it, and weighing what amenities would I NEED, and where I would feel most at home.

I recall that it took me two years of praying almost every day to agree to move from London, back to Hague in 1983. I don't know how long this will take, but the SCAM before Easter has taught me the urgency of praying hard for wisdom before making a huge decision. So I'm staying put here, until I have clear counsel and even specific directions for a move from my Father above!

I do appreciate my siblings visits and concern for me to have healthy foods. Their care rather overwhelmed me!

Meantime, all those extra hours with company meant that I fell behind in my business hours, and some gratis clients for whom I've built websites, suddenly need me to fix this or that, so my hours are not totally mine yet, but we'll get there.

I will gladly accept the gift of prayer regarding all these things to work out for God's glory and my good.

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